It sucks!! :((

That feeling you get when you know it's not the same anymore. It sucks!! It's killing me softly. To be honest, I'm in the middle of nowhere right now, over and over again. I used to feel this feeling last year, when we broke up. And I just can't imagine that I'm feeling this again. Next month will be our 3rd anniversary. It's an amazing thing for me. Imagine, we went thru ups and downs together, yet we still remain standing. We already shared million memories, and no one can ever replace those luminous memories. I want to fight for this relationship, not just because of those memories, but because I know, he's really the one for me, EVER SINCE!!. But what's happening right now? Sometimes, I feel like quitting, giving up. I don't want to be vulnerable. I want to make this relationship work until the end. I love him, I still love him and I will always will. Though sometimes, I'm beginning to doubt with the love I have for him. I miss him, I miss us. I miss the things that we used to do. Those sweet moments, unending chit-chats, those warm hugs and kisses. We're together almost everyday. But now? We already don't have time for each other. Specially him. But I need to understand his situation. He's working right now, he's the guardian of his siblings. Yeah, I can take that. I understand that, but I also have limitations. I really wanna be with him. I want to be happy. He's becoming effortless. Yes, he needs me. But I also need him. Right now, we're not communicating. I'm waiting for him to text me first. I want this to be alright. I value our relationship so much. I want to talk to him personally and settle things between us. I'm hurt, and I know he feels the same way. But despite of this, I'm thinking positively that we can conquer this predicament. In God's will. :((

Job well done! (03/10/12)

Ang sarap lang sa pakiramdam! TAPOS NA DEFENSE. At feeling naman namin kahit hindi pa sinasabi yung result, pasado kami! Obvious naman sa comments ng panel at sa reaction ni Sir Dennis! Haaay grabe. Parang nabunutan ng tinik. :)))))))))

March 9, 2012
Defense ng 3B nun. Kami ng mga ka-group ko, halos ngarag pa sa paggawa ng kiosk namin. As in!! Ang dami pa!! Yung problema sa relay, pag-install ng printer, documents at syempre yung program pa talaga. Ang masama pa dun, hindi nagrereply yung adviser namin. Hindi rin nya sinasagot yung mga tawag namin. Kung sasagutin man, paputol-putol, iho-hold nya o kaya sasabihin, magtetext na lang sya. Grabe talaga! Halos naubusan na yata kami ng pag-asa. But still, I kept on telling myself na have faith. Habang tinatapos ko yung documents namin, syempre konting biruan, kwentuhan at harutan. Pampawala ng stress. Haha. Tapos patayu-tayo ako. Hindi nga ako mapakali e. Hanggang sa natapos na yung defense ng B. Syempre kailangan na rin namin umalis ng school. Bigla namang nakaisip kami ng paraan para sa problema namin sa printer. Whoo!! Palusot na lang sa limitation ng study namin. Tas ayun, we decided na ipagpatuloy na lang namin yung paggawa sa bahay. Pero hindi overnight. Uuwi din sila after. Tapos si Ron, umuwi na! O diba kalalakeng tao, ayaw umuwi ng gabi. Tsk! Hanggang sa inumaga na sila ate sai ng pag-uwi dahil sa super daming gawain.

March 10, 2012
Defense naaaa!!! Grabe sobrang kinakabahan ako lalo na't pangatlo kami sa magdedefense. Nag set-up pa kami ng mga gamit namin kasi syempre ita-try pa namin yung system e. Tapos yun, grabe!!! Yung 10 peso coin namin, ayaw basahin ng coin slot. Chambahan lang!! Nakakakaba. Lalo na kapag bumubukas yung pinto ng room. Baka kasi bigla na kaming tawagin e. Then, ayun naaa!! Kami na! Syemre pagpasok, todo smile sa panel. Nag-start ang presentation. Documents muna then ung system na. HALA!! Ayaw basahin yung coins namin. Nagulat kami, kinabahan pero hindi naman nataranta. Buti na lang at may GUI kami. Prepared e, sabi nga ng panel. HAHA. Hanggang sa gumana na yung coin slot. Ayun, everything went well and smooth naman. Ang cool nga ng usapan between the panel tska samin. Enjoy lang tsaka tanggap lang ng tanngap ng suggestions nila. Hanggang sa natapos na. Nakangiti ang panel, narinig ko pa na "Okay na, okay na sakin." Yaaaayyy!! Grabe ang sarap sa pakiramdam!! =)))))))))))

Congrats satin ate sai, joyda at babe ron (bading!!). Completion of suggestions na lang. JOB WELL DONE!! :)))))))

GIRLFRIENDS! (03/02/12)

Ang saya lang. Pare-pareho kami ng damit. BATGIRLS! :) as we claimed ourselves. Binili ko sya para kay Ate Sai. Dapat nga magkakaiba kami kaso bigla kong naisipang mas maganda siguro kung magkakapareho kami. 

After class, pumunta kami ng World Trade Center para sa Go Negosyo program ng GMA-7. May incentive din kami sa Entrep kaya kahit super init at kahit late na, pumunta pa rin kami. Ayun! Ang dami naming nakitang kapareho ng damit namin. HAHA! Yung kay Joyda pa nga (naka-yellow), nakasampay pa kasi tinitinda rin dun sa loob ng WTC. Marami rin kaming nakitang artista like Dra. Vicky Belo, Lou Anne Dy, Maricel Pangilinan, Angelie Pangilinan, Fannie Serrano at Vina Morales.

Around 4pm, lumabas na kami ng venue. We planned na pumunta ng MOA. Pero hindi kami sumakay ng cab, naglakad lang kami. Grabe! SUPER INIT!! Pero dahil trip naming maglakad, lakad lang talaga. Nakakatawa lang kasi sabi kami ng sabi na tanaw na namin yung SMX, yun pala, iba yun! Hahaha! :PP

After 30 minutes (yata), nakarating na rin kami. Naunahan pa kami nila Marvi. Syempre sumakay sila e. HAHA. Nung nakarating na kami, kumain agad kami sa Mcdo. After nun, naglakad-lakad sa MOA. Tapos, dun sa Seaside. Medyo madilim na rin kasi yun. Nakaupo lang kami dun, naghihintay ng fireworks kasi sabi ni Janette meron daw e. Yun pala wala! Haha. Sayang! Pero dun na rin namin sinabi ni Ate Sai yung mga kailangang malaman ni Joyda tungkol kay toooot. :)) Kahit papano, naging okay na kasi wala na kaming tinatago. 'Twas a blast! I really love the way we bond that day. <3

Badtreeeppp!! (03/01/12)

Uggghh! Super duper kbdtrp! Super bagal ng net, hndi mkpgbrowse ng maayos. Dunno what happened. Walang signal dito smntlang lgi nmang meron. Syang ung load ng broadband ko. :(


Anyway, nkita ko sa TV ung sarili ko. HAHA! Gulat lng ako nung nkita kong school ko yun nung high school ako. Tpos ayun! I saw myself, tumatawa pa! Hihihi. Nung 3rd year high school ako nun e. I still remember the exact scenario. Nkakatawa lng! :))

Haaay. Hope before this day ends, mgng okay ako. Pti ba nman kasi sa text, late message din. Gaaawwwddd! :|||